What is Life???

I always remember "Life is a Race".
be the the first or you'll be trampled..

But someone also has thought me to be the best and success will follow..
That means what we have to do is be the best and success will follow..

I think that's really true but to do our best is not that easy..
My life is to fulfill my parent's dreams.
To make them happy..
They are my only hope as I do to them..
I just love them and I would do everything to make them happy
But most of the times I forgot and enjoy my lives, but when the time comes, I'll shed my tears
because i can't really fulfill what I've promised to them..
Mum, dad
Always remember and always know that I'll always love you..
without you I'm no one..
For your love that makes me stand to live..

I love you mummy, daddy.. ^^

Long Distance Love

I just state about what I feel here..
In my previous post, I've wrote about someone that I really miss and I wanna see him but I just don't have the chance because we're both far away from each other..

I knew him a few years ago through a social website. It's kinda Facebook but it's not.
At first I just thought him just like a brother because he;s older than me..
Then, I started to start to send mails, post on pictures.. and so on..
But I dont think that he do thought me as his 'sister'. He always hope for a relationship.
He's very sweet. He'll advise me, encourage me to do something better and he always be so sweet to me.. He used to end our e-mails with xoxo.. everytime..

What do you think about what he think??
Does he love me??

I just hope he did.. and I wonder whether he misses me or not??


I just hope that we will meet sooner or later as I've promised..
Do you think  a long distance would work??

If u think of something don't be afraid to leave a comment because I just kept thinking about this thing even in class!! I just can't concentrate when I remember about him..

Missing You~~

I just don't know why I just can't forget him though that it's been a very long time since I last contact him. It's about 2 to 3 years ago..
   I've forget him and before but I don't know how and why, I just dreamed about him 2 weeks ago. And I can't forget that 'dream' till now. It left me a strong feeling.. I just don't know how to describe but, I dreamed about him about 3 to 4 times straight in just a few days..(LESS THAN A WEEK!!!)

*sigh..
According to what I heard (my friend's said) if we dreamed about someone ( a person that you know), about 3 times straight, that means that the person was meant for us..

I just dont know.. I dont know how to believe about that thing..
But I just can't forget him.. 
I just dont know what does it mean..
Maybe he misses me..  I just dont know ..
 I really hope that someday I will have the answers for this..
For the time being, God!! Please help me..


This is the place that i can express my feelings and my problems..
So please don't take it so much..

Till next time..

A girl in dilemma...

College Life..

I dont know what I do feel now. I was just thinking about my future,My exam results..
The exam result for other course for healthcare students had been released last week.. But for my course it just didnt appear yet..

Many of my friends have problems with their CGPA..
Most of them dropped their CGPA and others have to re-sit the examination..
Though that my previous result are quite 'good' but I'm just scared of it that it would dropped and tak naik-naik... Matilah aku kalau mcm tu..
sOMETIMES i JusT fEEl THAt I waNT TO be lIKe Spongebob.. LaUGHiNg All thE TiMe.. ^^

That's one thing

Another thing is that my friend since form5 that I knew just enrolled to this college..
I feel quite hap[py for it since we're quite close (as a friend only arh)
*if you guys think yang bukan-bukan, my oppa will marah you, hahaha..
I really hope that we can bergaduh mcm dalam kelas dulu..
Bergaduh about something that yang tak ada apa2 pun sebenarnya.. But dun know why lah.. Seronok plak buat macam tu.. haha If ada Harpreet, and Kartik lagi GEMPAK.. HAHAHAHUHUHU
If ONLY he didnt change college..
I understand that's what his parent's trying to do.
They would alway want the best for their children.. My mum and dad also would do the same...
It's just a few days here and my friend said that dia nak change college kan...
So what can I do... Fate decide where we r suppose to be going.. ^^

Hi.. again??

It's been a very long time since my last post.. I'm too busy and tired lah to blogging..
I was very busy posting in Selayang Hospital. It's quite fun working there. But still.. the 'witch' I've been telling you before starting to torture us!! Everyday, she'll make us feel very bored, hate to see her face. She'll make us cry. And I've cried once. I just don't know how to face this. However, it's been 4 weeks i've been tahan that perempuan gila. No wonder they semester 8 nursing students called her 'Puaka Niyang Rapik'. And yes, still. 'the nickname was sealed with her. I called her 'PNR' as an akronym for the Puaka Niyang Rapik. haha. serves her right. However I've taken precautions to stand right if she makes something to rosakkan aku. I don't care.
     The staffs there loves me.. haha.. But, next week I'll have to change ward... I won't be able to see my beloved doctors.. and staff nurses.. T-T... I'll blog about something that I love working there and why.. I'll take the chances.. Till then.. Bye.. ^^

Mum and Dad..

So many problems fall onto me.One by one.. Why life is always full of false hope? I just dont know what to do other than keep on crying and keep crying all those dull and .. *haisy.. Luckily I have my mother and father which is always with me all the times though that we live separately right now. I really hope I can live this apartment and go back to my mum and dad's arms..

The arms that always hold me tight to their heart. I don't need anything more than I do need them. I could cry and die without them but not my friends. My mum and dad are so important to me. In a simple word. I live, i breathe, i succeed for them. It's for their happiness. I really hope that I can be a professor like they do always hope I would be. I would sacrifice for grab it all in my hand and hand it them with honour and love.

I could live without my friends but not without you. I would feel down and sad without you.
I am nothing without you.
I love you mummy, daddy..
My love is just for you. Not somebody else.
I'll try to make you proud daddy, mummy..
I hope that your love to me would not fade away but .lies with me eternally.
And so my love for you.. ^^

Posting in Selayang Hospital

After the Deepavali 1 week, holiday we're sent to Selayang hospital. Here, I was assigned to the medical ward. Mainly are elders and this is Man's ward. OMG! I dont know what to say bcoz we have to clean them, feed them and so on. The doctors are cute (male doctors) and the wad sister's nice to me EXCEPT FOR OUR Clinical Instructor (C.I)!!! She's like a witch!! Cruel. Not a single smile on her face. Pilih Kasih and what arh? Too many kejahatan that she makes me crazy everytime i see her. Sometimes she's ok. Depends on her mood lah. These girls called her 'nenek sihir'. hahaha And I know she doesnt really like me. So what? I have my own life. The doctors liked me, the staff nurse and the ward sisters. They'l teach me and give me something to do to help them. And I'm happy to work with them. Especially when something funny happen that once I 'tergelek' the doctor's feet with the patients's bed.. hahaha.. Till 4 times!!! OMG~~ Now, I just feel like want to run away when I see him. hahaha. But, he seems to like me. He makes jokes and i dont know. Fooling around. Doctor also got yang perangai macam aku ni. see. Bukan aku sorang ja yang gila macam ni.. hahaha..

 Oklah. dah banyak cakap ni. tapi tak habis lagi. Nanti i sambung in thje next post. I hav to prepare for posting.. Meet that psycho doctor again.. hahaha. bye now..

^^ Love you..