One of the worst day of my life

Today, my lecturer announced our Behavioral Science I test 1 result... As always, i waited with excitement.. But then, when i realized that I wasn't one of the top scorers.. My tears rolled down my cheeks.. automatically that I ran into the toilet.. I cried and I cried.. Feeling guilty to my mum and dad.. Remembering that I promised that I will do my best in my studies.. I always try my best to do my best.. And most of the times, I'll try to be the best among the best..  


        But today, I feel bad.. A total moron.. I fell very bad.. I feel stupid, useless, weak, ashame.. That's all the words i can think off but none of them describe what i truly experience.. I cried for two hours till there are no more tears to roll.. Thanks to my friends who always be with me whenever i feel good and during the bad days.. I really appreciate it though i've never show it... Honestly, I love you guys.. I hope i can do the same when you guys feel bad...



        Well, i do tell my mum, but there's nothing she can do. She advised me, but sometimes, the words cut.. I know what she means but the words really cut.. To no one i can speak to... No shoulder for me to cry on.. I feel lonely, sad.. Yes, today I look down, not as cheerful as always.. But please don't get mad at me.. I'm really sorry.. There's no word i can describe my feeling.. If only i can have someone to share with..

       I promise myself that I won't give out.. Thanks to my BFF Christin Chin at fB.. for advising me.. I'll try my best so that i cAn BE THE BEST ONCE AGAIN...