Well, actually I'm still having my clinical posting. But, for the chinese new year, we're having a one week holiday. I'll resume my duty for another 5 weeks (i guess) before my final exam.. Ohh~ SCARY.. hahaha.
As usual, I hate posting so much.. except for the sem1 that brought me soo many breathtaking experiences.. I think i can write a novel. haha.. ^^ Yes, the doctors, they love me. Some even call me 'love' even that he's like my uncle.. but i just consider it as a father talking to her daughter..
This time, I've met the same doctor that I've been following to whatever he's up to. But, just feeling awkward after knowing that he's a friend of my cousin.. and he's married. That's not the thing that I'm worried about since I don't want to end in a serious relationship with a Kelantanese.. Ok.. so we were being 'awkward' the whole time.. Luckily that I'm not working at thee same ward as he is. So we'll just see each other saying thank you,helping some sorts of things and I set off..
The weird story is that the doctor that my friend is madly in love with is watching me.. I don't want to make things any worse but I just don't know what to do. He keeps on staring me, smiling and his eyes watched me wherever I go. It's not that I dont wanna be friends with him or what. But I feel awkward. Coz he's the one who calms me down when I was crying in the pantry alone after being scolded with the WITCH I've been telling you previously a long time ago.
My friends said that he admires me. He'll always smile and stares and when I walk behind him, he'll turn to face me.. Not backing me up.. My best friend are jealous when i told this to her. (other BFF) she asked me to go on with it. It's not everytime someone who's nice and respects you would be in front of your eyes. Giving support. Yeah I thinks maybe she's right. My mum told me the same thing.
He's an Ireland graduate. Polite, caring and everything that girls wants in this era. Should I just accept him or just ignore him??
I'm in a huge dilemma.. I just don't know what to do.
But I also doesn't really understand what he really wants. What does it means behind his actions? Maybe it's just his attitude that's always like that?? Hmm
the time I knew that he admires me my heart was like..
One more thing that I'm afraid off.. My cousin will be doing his housemanship in this very same hospital that I'm working in.. I don;t want him to know anything about this. Coz, he'll tell the whole thing to my family.. Oh god please don't let this happen..
Maybe it's puppy love?? My friend had told me. Wherever I go, there must be someone who falls for me. Either one or sometimes more, fighting over for me behind my back. It's that I the one who never notice about it. I'm just feeling like I'm the uh.. Aphrodite?? haha
So I'll just let it go. See what happens next.. If we were meant to be, then I would just take it..
