In love???

Hey.. it's been such a very long time since I last wrote for my blog. I have many things to share with but I'm to bust to tell.. Now that I'm having a holiday, I'm going to take this opportunity to tell what's deep inside my head..

Well, actually I'm still having my clinical posting. But, for the chinese new year, we're having a one week holiday. I'll resume my duty for another 5 weeks (i guess) before my final exam.. Ohh~ SCARY.. hahaha.

As usual, I hate posting so much.. except for the sem1 that brought me soo many breathtaking experiences.. I think i can write a novel. haha.. ^^ Yes, the doctors, they love me. Some even call me 'love' even that he's like my uncle.. but i just consider it as a father talking to her daughter..
This time, I've met the same doctor that I've been following to whatever he's up to. But, just feeling awkward after knowing that he's a friend of my cousin.. and he's married. That's not the thing that I'm worried about since I don't want to end in a serious relationship with a Kelantanese.. Ok.. so we were being 'awkward' the whole time.. Luckily that I'm not working at thee same ward as he is. So we'll just see each other saying thank you,helping some sorts of things and I set off..

The weird story is that the doctor that my friend is madly in love with is watching me.. I don't want to make things any worse but I just don't know what to do. He keeps on staring me, smiling and his eyes watched me wherever I go. It's not that I dont wanna be friends with him or what. But I feel awkward. Coz he's the one who calms me down when I was crying in the pantry alone after being scolded with the WITCH I've been telling you previously a long time ago.

My friends said that he admires me. He'll always smile and stares and when I walk behind him, he'll turn to face me.. Not backing me up..  My best friend are jealous when i told this to her. (other BFF) she asked me to go on with it. It's not everytime someone who's nice and respects you would be in front of your eyes. Giving support. Yeah I thinks maybe she's right. My mum told me the same thing.
He's an Ireland graduate. Polite, caring and everything that girls wants in this era. Should I just accept him or just ignore him?? 
I'm in a huge dilemma..  I just don't know what to do.
But I also doesn't really understand what he really wants. What does it means behind his actions? Maybe it's just his attitude that's always like that?? Hmm
the time I knew that he admires me my heart was like..  filled with flower?? I SUPPOSE?? haha

One more thing that I'm afraid off.. My cousin will be doing his housemanship in this very same hospital that I'm working in.. I don;t want him to know anything about this. Coz, he'll tell the whole thing to my family.. Oh god please don't let this happen..
Maybe it's puppy love?? My friend had told me. Wherever I go, there must be someone who falls for me. Either one or sometimes more, fighting over for me behind my back. It's that I the one who never notice about it. I'm just feeling like I'm the uh.. Aphrodite?? haha
So I'll just let it go. See what happens next.. If we were meant to be, then I would just take it..

Life as a Nursing Student

Hey guys..
It's me again..

yeah.. i know that I'm away for some time but I'm BACK AGAIN!!!!

It's not that I dont want to update this blog but I'm just too tired..
I've been posted in Selayang Hospital for about 12-13 weeks!!!
OMG!!









main lobby of selayang hospital..


This is where I've been all this while.
To me (after THE POSTING HAS ENDED) it's not all that bad.. It's kind of like okaylah..
But it's like hell back in there actually.. ^^

Being a student nurse is not all about taking the crosses needed  to sit for OSCE test.. But to me, it's like gaining experiences,gain knowledge and taking care to those in need..

There, I learn how to take care of the Geriatric patients (elder). But most of the time, we need to be calm when treating them. Some of them could be aggresive towards anyone. Especially the health care workers.

I've been to many wards, 1st class, medical ward, urology and many more.
I've met a lot of doctors. Doctor with various attitude, some could take students and some are not.
And the thing that I hate the most is when the HO's (houseman) or doctor in training are rude towards the patients and student nurses. as if they were good enough. Whereas the specialist was very kind.. Well, that was confusing.
well, this is Dr. Ricahard.I met him when I was assigned in ward 4C palliative ward. He's a specialist. Some say that he doesnt like students. But luckily he didnt say anything nor scold me during my posting in the ward. (I didnt do anything wrong)


Well, for people like me (who doesnt like nursing at all) It's quite challenging. But I'll try to do my best to get good result for my diploma in nursing. After that I'm going further.. Bachelor in Science in John Hopkins University.. Wish me luck for that..

Well, to all the petients, get well soon..

and to you guys.. take care  for your health.. It's the most important thing in life.. 

 

 

What is Life???

I always remember "Life is a Race".
be the the first or you'll be trampled..

But someone also has thought me to be the best and success will follow..
That means what we have to do is be the best and success will follow..

I think that's really true but to do our best is not that easy..
My life is to fulfill my parent's dreams.
To make them happy..
They are my only hope as I do to them..
I just love them and I would do everything to make them happy
But most of the times I forgot and enjoy my lives, but when the time comes, I'll shed my tears
because i can't really fulfill what I've promised to them..
Mum, dad
Always remember and always know that I'll always love you..
without you I'm no one..
For your love that makes me stand to live..

I love you mummy, daddy.. ^^

Long Distance Love

I just state about what I feel here..
In my previous post, I've wrote about someone that I really miss and I wanna see him but I just don't have the chance because we're both far away from each other..

I knew him a few years ago through a social website. It's kinda Facebook but it's not.
At first I just thought him just like a brother because he;s older than me..
Then, I started to start to send mails, post on pictures.. and so on..
But I dont think that he do thought me as his 'sister'. He always hope for a relationship.
He's very sweet. He'll advise me, encourage me to do something better and he always be so sweet to me.. He used to end our e-mails with xoxo.. everytime..

What do you think about what he think??
Does he love me??

I just hope he did.. and I wonder whether he misses me or not??


I just hope that we will meet sooner or later as I've promised..
Do you think  a long distance would work??

If u think of something don't be afraid to leave a comment because I just kept thinking about this thing even in class!! I just can't concentrate when I remember about him..

Missing You~~

I just don't know why I just can't forget him though that it's been a very long time since I last contact him. It's about 2 to 3 years ago..
   I've forget him and before but I don't know how and why, I just dreamed about him 2 weeks ago. And I can't forget that 'dream' till now. It left me a strong feeling.. I just don't know how to describe but, I dreamed about him about 3 to 4 times straight in just a few days..(LESS THAN A WEEK!!!)

*sigh..
According to what I heard (my friend's said) if we dreamed about someone ( a person that you know), about 3 times straight, that means that the person was meant for us..

I just dont know.. I dont know how to believe about that thing..
But I just can't forget him.. 
I just dont know what does it mean..
Maybe he misses me..  I just dont know ..
 I really hope that someday I will have the answers for this..
For the time being, God!! Please help me..


This is the place that i can express my feelings and my problems..
So please don't take it so much..

Till next time..

A girl in dilemma...

College Life..

I dont know what I do feel now. I was just thinking about my future,My exam results..
The exam result for other course for healthcare students had been released last week.. But for my course it just didnt appear yet..

Many of my friends have problems with their CGPA..
Most of them dropped their CGPA and others have to re-sit the examination..
Though that my previous result are quite 'good' but I'm just scared of it that it would dropped and tak naik-naik... Matilah aku kalau mcm tu..
sOMETIMES i JusT fEEl THAt I waNT TO be lIKe Spongebob.. LaUGHiNg All thE TiMe.. ^^

That's one thing

Another thing is that my friend since form5 that I knew just enrolled to this college..
I feel quite hap[py for it since we're quite close (as a friend only arh)
*if you guys think yang bukan-bukan, my oppa will marah you, hahaha..
I really hope that we can bergaduh mcm dalam kelas dulu..
Bergaduh about something that yang tak ada apa2 pun sebenarnya.. But dun know why lah.. Seronok plak buat macam tu.. haha If ada Harpreet, and Kartik lagi GEMPAK.. HAHAHAHUHUHU
If ONLY he didnt change college..
I understand that's what his parent's trying to do.
They would alway want the best for their children.. My mum and dad also would do the same...
It's just a few days here and my friend said that dia nak change college kan...
So what can I do... Fate decide where we r suppose to be going.. ^^

Hi.. again??

It's been a very long time since my last post.. I'm too busy and tired lah to blogging..
I was very busy posting in Selayang Hospital. It's quite fun working there. But still.. the 'witch' I've been telling you before starting to torture us!! Everyday, she'll make us feel very bored, hate to see her face. She'll make us cry. And I've cried once. I just don't know how to face this. However, it's been 4 weeks i've been tahan that perempuan gila. No wonder they semester 8 nursing students called her 'Puaka Niyang Rapik'. And yes, still. 'the nickname was sealed with her. I called her 'PNR' as an akronym for the Puaka Niyang Rapik. haha. serves her right. However I've taken precautions to stand right if she makes something to rosakkan aku. I don't care.
     The staffs there loves me.. haha.. But, next week I'll have to change ward... I won't be able to see my beloved doctors.. and staff nurses.. T-T... I'll blog about something that I love working there and why.. I'll take the chances.. Till then.. Bye.. ^^